Sammy, I was thinking today that no matter what I am doing, even after 8 months, I still can't stop thinking about you. I can't help but think I must have failed you, knowing now how much you were hurting inside. I wish, more than ANYTHING, that I could have made you feel better. I now understand, or at least comprehend, some of that inner pain you must have had. My purpose and joy in life was raising you and Jonathan. Why did you have to leave us, Sam, why??? I miss you so o o very much! XXOO