Hi sweetie, just sitting here thinking of you and how much I miss you. I'm trying to figure out what lies ahead in my future, and it's all a chaotic mess. Don't know what to expect, don't know where to go from here, just don't know what I want anymore. I'm lost without you kiddo, and nothing seems certain anymore. I'm finding out I have many faces I put on, depending on situations, and I'm going through the motions of life without much thought. I guess I would say I'm just existing right now and I pray it will get better. I enjoy being with Jon, but I feel I'm basing my whole life on him now and that's probably not fair to him either. I'll always love and miss you greatly, Sammy. Your deeply engraved in my heart!