soccer_goalie1978 2nd February 2008

Just wanted you to know that you have been on my mind a lot lately. I have been having a tough couple weeks emotion wise, I visited this site so many times and just couldn't write anything. I don't know why, I have so much to say but the words just wouldn't come out. I still think about getting the news that you had made the choice to leave us and the disbelief that I felt. I wanted to scream and cry and hit something all at the same time. There is still part of my mind that will not forgive me for not spending more time with you when I had the chance. They say everything happens for a reason and I truly believe that. Yet part of me still wonders why? Why you and not me? Why was I spared and given the strength to carry on, why not you? You had so much talent and life to share and I don't understand why you had to go. I guess I keep telling myself you were called first to show us that we all needed to slow down and appreciate the little things in life more. I know I certainly have taken note of that and even though I have my bad days I will never forget the gift you have given us all. The gift of life and love. I will always be in debt to you for giving me a second chance to do what I started out to do in this world. That is to love and be loved; to appreciate every second of everyday; to take obstacles and make the goals to achieve. Thank you Sammi, you have given me more than you will ever know. Love always, Amy