Oh Sammy, the holidays are coming up and my heart aches knowing you can't be with us. There are times I find the pain of missing you excruciating, and I don't know how or if our lives will ever be happy again. I watch for signs from you everyday, or even pray you will come to me in my dreams, so maybe I can gain some understanding. Or that hopefully you could let us know maybe that your o.k. and that you do love us. It hurts badly to think you wanted to leave us. I remembering telling you every day I love you, and I promise I will never stop telling you. Sleep in peace, baby girl.