My Dearest Sammy, Well here we are at the beginning of the New Year, and I am not sure what life will bring our way. I know that I can only take it one day at a time and see where that leads me. Life I have found out has its surprises, some good and some bad, and some things are just destined to be. Your death was not destined to be but rather a long string of bad circumstances that you found unbearable. Sometimes I think about how you must have felt to do what you did. And yet I think their are many that still refuse to believe that you felt helpless and hopeless and felt this was your only option. Why else would someone do what you did? Maybe it's easier for some to pretend it was for other reasons, like what I don't know! Unfortunately the truth does hurt, but I feel the only way to go on is to be honest and truthful about what happened and learn from it. I will continue to keep your memory alive now and forever my dear. I love you and keep you close to me always! XXOO Happy New Year baby girl!