Sammy, I can't believe some of the things I am still finding out after all this time since you have been gone. Oh Sammy, I am so sorry you went through what you did. I know after losing Timmy and Paul it was so extremely difficult for you, but I never knew what the kids were saying to you at school. They obviously had no idea how badly you were already feeling, and I know we did not help matters either. If only I had known honey, I would have done anything for you. Shame on us and shame on those people who said and did the things they did to you at school. I think I'm understanding why you did turn to drinking and drugs. After all you had been through and you still were being put down. Wow, I just can't believe some people and certainly you did NOT deserve any of it. I love you Sammy, and I will always be sorry I couldn't have been there more for you. I'm finally seeing things more clearly, and knowing what I know now, there will be some things I will NEVER be able to forgive, not only in other people, but also myself for not doing what I should have done. I miss you so deeply. XX00