My Dear Sammy, I'm lost sweetie, and I don't know what to do, say, feel anymore. I'm trying to move forward and yet in many ways I'm holding back. I think I know what is right, but I'm told I am wrong. You left a hole in my soul, Sam, and all I want to do is learn something from the past, and yet the hole continues to grow, and it's not allowed to heal the way I need it too. If your watching over me, please send me a sign, anything would be helpful at this point, I'm losing the battle. Love you with all my heart sweetie, and know your in my thoughts daily. By the way, you would be so proud of your brother, Jon. He is doing so o o well at cross-country. He's what keeps me going! XXOO